[everything about him grounds her. some of the feelings that settle against her own are surprising - the fear is what seems to stand out. in lili's own feelings, there is none. not in this moment. there is no room for failure in this game, and there is not yet any consideration for what might happen if one of them falls. there's only the determination to move forward, the certainty that everything will be fine - even if it takes walking through hellfire to get there. she has to have hope.
she always has an unwavering hope.
the rest of it almost brings tears to her eyes, and she shuts them for a moment. in the feedback loop of their emotions, in the conversation that's happening unsaid, there is still some room for surprise. even though she said that she wouldn't worry, and even though he has no room for questioning anything, it doesn't mean that she can stop her feelings so easily. there is still the residual shock, the oddity of there's someone in this world who thinks I'm worth loving mixed with oh, I'm so glad that it's you.
but she realizes the way that her emotions can overwhelm - the way that her heart carries so much. if his love is a blue sky, then hers is the way that a sunset reaches into forever, stretching for the horizon, as if the day was not long enough already. it's wanting and greedy, in the way that nothing is ever good enough for lili. she wants kara more than anything else, and loves him in a way that's both confident in its certainty and desperate to never let go, to never let him want for anything.
her hand starts to release his, loosening her hold and pulling away.]
... sorry, I'll - ask before I touch you this week.
[in case it's too much, in case she's too much.
he can love her without wanting to experience everything the way that she does - vividly, wildly.]
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she always has an unwavering hope.
the rest of it almost brings tears to her eyes, and she shuts them for a moment. in the feedback loop of their emotions, in the conversation that's happening unsaid, there is still some room for surprise. even though she said that she wouldn't worry, and even though he has no room for questioning anything, it doesn't mean that she can stop her feelings so easily. there is still the residual shock, the oddity of there's someone in this world who thinks I'm worth loving mixed with oh, I'm so glad that it's you.
but she realizes the way that her emotions can overwhelm - the way that her heart carries so much. if his love is a blue sky, then hers is the way that a sunset reaches into forever, stretching for the horizon, as if the day was not long enough already. it's wanting and greedy, in the way that nothing is ever good enough for lili. she wants kara more than anything else, and loves him in a way that's both confident in its certainty and desperate to never let go, to never let him want for anything.
her hand starts to release his, loosening her hold and pulling away.]
... sorry, I'll - ask before I touch you this week.
[in case it's too much, in case she's too much.
he can love her without wanting to experience everything the way that she does - vividly, wildly.]