... I don't know if I'm as selfless as you make me sound....
I've already fallen apart here too. It's just - nothing has really... cut as deep as the first weekend.
[there's no one she misses as much as tsurumaru. she feels the same anger and despair as everyone else when they fail, but it's not enough to knock her off her feet.]
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... I don't know if I'm as selfless as you make me sound....
I've already fallen apart here too. It's just - nothing has really... cut as deep as the first weekend.
[there's no one she misses as much as tsurumaru. she feels the same anger and despair as everyone else when they fail, but it's not enough to knock her off her feet.]
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[there are other ways to feel hurt and pain in a place like this, after all]
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Well, I'm used to the other kind of pain.
[the frustration. the futility. the constantly being locked out of answers and not being taken seriously.
maybe that's why she's even more stubborn that akira is sometimes, after living through failure for 17 years]
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[Lili please!1]
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It doesn't, but it's what I've lived with, Akira.
[she wears disappointment like a second skin]
And it's not something that can be solved until we win, right? So we just... need to get something right.
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[well. . . he doesn't have much to say about that]
[but he does reach out to drop both of his hands on her shoulders, squeezing lightly]
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... if I think I need something or want for anything, I'll tell you. Second, right after Kara.
Deal?
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Deal.
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We'll be alright.
[ . . . but she wants to give credit where it's due though and so she pauses, looking just a bit embarrassed]
And I'm not... It's not common for...
[how does she want to say this]
... Most people don't check on me as often as you do. So even if it's not... all that necessary...
Even being asked is....
[ . . . . . ]
Kind of... nice.
[she is so stupid and awkward]
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[it's endearing, and Akira finds himself flashing her a genuine smile]
It's another part of being friends with me.
[nodnods!!]
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W-Well, that's... fine!
I guess!
[GOD]
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You guess?
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[STOP DOING THIS TO HER]
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You guess.
[HE JUST SOUNDS AMUSED]
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Stop laughing!! Don't make fun of me!
[she gets so easy to bully]
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[akira, don't]