[Her answer is as quiet as it is untrue. There's a lot that she wants. She wants his company. She wants to not be so alone. She wants some reminder that maybe there is some hope for her in this world. More than any of that, she really wants his understand but-
But she doesn't know how to say it in such a public place and not when it feels like she doesn't know where she stands with anything anymore.
Is she afraid? She's still puzzling over it. Is she really afraid?
When she looks back at him, she's wiped most of the tears from her eyes and she tries so very hard to make her gaze hard - but she doesn't succeed in ridding it of anxiousness.]
[ He's not sure what to do now, with Lili looking at him with her hardened eyes and squared posture. Should he insist? Is that overstepping, when he's in the wrong?
His strategy is always too simple, clumsy and scrabbling— he reaches, because it's the only thing he can be sure that he can do. He walks towards her with uncertain footsteps, but he moves forward because he's scared to death of huddling on the ground again.
When he gets within range, he tries to hand his stuffed animal to Lili, stupid expression and floppy arms and all. What he goes for is a smile, because despite everything, he still wishes he could do more. ]
I can go, but... will you keep this for me...?
[ 'Haku' dangles in his palm like a misshapen peace offering. ]
I know you don't want it, so... I'll come get it back from you. Whenever you're okay with seeing me again.
[Admittedly she moves a little bit like a frightened animal when he walks closer, flinching and turning away when he extends his hand at first. Even if he's the least offensive person in the world, even if he's only been kind to her, she's still so uncertain and paranoid and her expectation of kindness is nonexistent--]
[ He supposes that he should feel more put-off, probably. But he looks slightly puzzled, with his head angled at that feline angle, like a housepet that isn't quite sure what its human counterpart is so upset about. ]
Why... am I doing this? [ just to clarify. ] Because...
[ 'We're friends, aren't we?', is what he'd like to say, but— he's a coward, he's not so presumptuous as to say that, so he waffles. ]
There are ways that she could tell him that. She could say it. She could hold onto his sleeve. She could do something - but she's still a coward, too. It's too scary. It's too embarrassing. Even if she wants him to be around, she can't tell him.
Still...]
We... promised, right?
[To be there for each other if needed. Right now, she doesn't feel like it's needed but....
It's nice to know that even now, it's not the end. Even if she's mad(?), it doesn't mean they won't see each other again.
Tentatively, gingerly, she'll take the doll from him.]
.... I won't keep it for too long. It's still... gross.
[And maybe she'll find the courage to tell him that she wants to see him again, too.]
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[Her answer is as quiet as it is untrue. There's a lot that she wants. She wants his company. She wants to not be so alone. She wants some reminder that maybe there is some hope for her in this world. More than any of that, she really wants his understand but-
But she doesn't know how to say it in such a public place and not when it feels like she doesn't know where she stands with anything anymore.
Is she afraid? She's still puzzling over it. Is she really afraid?
When she looks back at him, she's wiped most of the tears from her eyes and she tries so very hard to make her gaze hard - but she doesn't succeed in ridding it of anxiousness.]
Just go.
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His strategy is always too simple, clumsy and scrabbling— he reaches, because it's the only thing he can be sure that he can do. He walks towards her with uncertain footsteps, but he moves forward because he's scared to death of huddling on the ground again.
When he gets within range, he tries to hand his stuffed animal to Lili, stupid expression and floppy arms and all. What he goes for is a smile, because despite everything, he still wishes he could do more. ]
I can go, but... will you keep this for me...?
[ 'Haku' dangles in his palm like a misshapen peace offering. ]
I know you don't want it, so... I'll come get it back from you. Whenever you're okay with seeing me again.
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She uncurls slowly, relaxing ever so slightly even as she wipes at her eyes just one last time and looks up at him with the most befuddled expression.
It doesn't make sense. None of it makes sense. She's been so rude and mean and callous and
And he still wants to see her again?]
Why....?
[How does a person like this exist?]
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[ He supposes that he should feel more put-off, probably. But he looks slightly puzzled, with his head angled at that feline angle, like a housepet that isn't quite sure what its human counterpart is so upset about. ]
Why... am I doing this? [ just to clarify. ] Because...
[ 'We're friends, aren't we?', is what he'd like to say, but— he's a coward, he's not so presumptuous as to say that, so he waffles. ]
I... still want to be around for you, if I can.
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There are ways that she could tell him that. She could say it. She could hold onto his sleeve. She could do something - but she's still a coward, too. It's too scary. It's too embarrassing. Even if she wants him to be around, she can't tell him.
Still...]
We... promised, right?
[To be there for each other if needed. Right now, she doesn't feel like it's needed but....
It's nice to know that even now, it's not the end. Even if she's mad(?), it doesn't mean they won't see each other again.
Tentatively, gingerly, she'll take the doll from him.]
.... I won't keep it for too long. It's still... gross.
[And maybe she'll find the courage to tell him that she wants to see him again, too.]