Still though, she's just going to shake her head at that.]
Fine, if you just want to fill up the silence. [She'll provide an explanation of her own.] I won't stop practicing my swordsmanship - not until I'm strong enough that no one has to protect me anymore. And even then, I know I'll still have to get stronger.
[But that's her reasoning and she's not afraid to share it.
Also it may be a bit of a warning of "Don't try to protect me." even if she doesn't expect that kind of behavior from Souji.]
[ honestly, he cares about her as much as he cares about anyone in Cerealia. Not very much, but by no fault of hers. He's just not used to or inclined towards caring about anyone, unless they physically force themselves into his lives (and spend at least five years as a hostage and aren't secretly sociopaths). ]
[ But not caring about Lili like that doesn't mean he can't engage in this thread of conversation now. ]
So you've been protected your whole life.
[ Not much of a surprise there. Lili had said she was the daughter of a general, after all. She sure sounds firm about it, but Souji knows that training to become strong is rarely that straightforward. He remembers Yuri's text, and Yuri had no less resolve. So instead of offering his help with training or advice about swords like so many of his companions would do, he shoots her a speculative sort of look. The sort of look someone with Doubts would have. ]
You can train all you want as long as you aren't a burden in the meantime. Wanting to learn to protect yourself and refusing other people's help are two different things. [ helpful, in the way only Souji can try to be ] If you can't tell the difference, you'll probably die.
That doesn't matter. It's more important for me to get stronger so I won't be as much of a burden - I'd rather die than have others get hurt protecting me.
[That's what happened to Yona, after all. It's too shameful for Lili to let others get hurt for her and so she refuses to allow such a thing to happen again. Her death doesn't mean anything in the grand scheme of things and for those important to her... there wouldn't be a hint of hesitation when it comes to that sacrifice.
A look over to Souji.]
Don't tell me things I already know. I'm not in a hurry to die either - but I'm tired of being the reason others get hurt.
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[It's not like he cares about her or anything.
Still though, she's just going to shake her head at that.]
Fine, if you just want to fill up the silence. [She'll provide an explanation of her own.] I won't stop practicing my swordsmanship - not until I'm strong enough that no one has to protect me anymore. And even then, I know I'll still have to get stronger.
[But that's her reasoning and she's not afraid to share it.
Also it may be a bit of a warning of "Don't try to protect me." even if she doesn't expect that kind of behavior from Souji.]
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[ honestly, he cares about her as much as he cares about anyone in Cerealia. Not very much, but by no fault of hers. He's just not used to or inclined towards caring about anyone, unless they physically force themselves into his lives (and spend at least five years as a hostage and aren't secretly sociopaths). ]
[ But not caring about Lili like that doesn't mean he can't engage in this thread of conversation now. ]
So you've been protected your whole life.
[ Not much of a surprise there. Lili had said she was the daughter of a general, after all. She sure sounds firm about it, but Souji knows that training to become strong is rarely that straightforward. He remembers Yuri's text, and Yuri had no less resolve. So instead of offering his help with training or advice about swords like so many of his companions would do, he shoots her a speculative sort of look. The sort of look someone with Doubts would have. ]
You can train all you want as long as you aren't a burden in the meantime. Wanting to learn to protect yourself and refusing other people's help are two different things. [ helpful, in the way only Souji can try to be ] If you can't tell the difference, you'll probably die.
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That doesn't matter. It's more important for me to get stronger so I won't be as much of a burden - I'd rather die than have others get hurt protecting me.
[That's what happened to Yona, after all. It's too shameful for Lili to let others get hurt for her and so she refuses to allow such a thing to happen again. Her death doesn't mean anything in the grand scheme of things and for those important to her... there wouldn't be a hint of hesitation when it comes to that sacrifice.
A look over to Souji.]
Don't tell me things I already know. I'm not in a hurry to die either - but I'm tired of being the reason others get hurt.