psl || how did this slowburn happen

[coastal]

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[unfriendliest]

We’ll see.

[ he’s absolutely daring her to try ]

[coastal]

[she's going to try, it's going to be stupid

but she does hate how easy this is, to just talk to him again and bicker over something that doesn't actually hold a lot of consequence. something this good never came to her this easily.

. . . ]

Hey... Can I kiss you?

[since he said he'd stay with her forever - she thinks it's a little overdue, all things considered]

[unfriendliest]

[ ...ah. amused, kara shakes his head. ]

You don’t have to ask.

[ he'll ask her, because lili made it clear she'd prefer that, but he wouldn't be bothered if she wanted to surprise him with a kiss most of the time ]

[coastal]

[sdflkjsdf]

But you always ask...

[and ever since the unfortunato milla incident, she figured that maybe he wouldn't want to be caught off-guard....]

[unfriendliest]

Because you said you wanted to know before I did. As long as it's just you, I don't need to know first.

[coastal]

Oh...

[ . . . ]

I only meant for the first one...

[she wanted to know if her first kiss was coming but all the ones that followed were and are fine without warning, even if

just talking about it makes her a little embarrassed]

[unfriendliest]

...Ah.

[ welp. they're both dumb, aren't they. ]

I'll remember that.

[coastal]

[they're both so dumb

they're both so dumb that lili has to actually cover her face for a moment because they're really not very good at this and it's almost funny when it's not crushing her spirit

but eventually she'll pull her hands away and shake her head]

Well... we said we'd figure it out as we went.

[unfriendliest]

[ kara looks away so she won't see him trying to suppress a smile. it's funny when she does that? please stop doing that

but he'll look back in a moment, once his expression is back under control ]

I thought we were doing okay.

[coastal]

[she is 5'2" and made of rage please stop thinking that she's funny

but she will glance back up at him and huff softly, without any actual complaint in her tone]

... well if you think so, then that's good enough for me too.

[it's not like they have to really meet anyone else's standards besides each other's

. . . .

it takes her another second to actually be strong enough to initiate, but she'll lean up to press their lips together again in a soft kiss

when she pulls back, she's definitely blushing but it's fine, that's probably going to be consistent forever]

[unfriendliest]

[ no promises

but he doesn’t tease her for the hesitation at least, so there’s that. and when she presses her lips against his, he’ll kiss her back briefly until lili pulls away ]

...You always turn so red.

[ he’s MEAN ]

[coastal]

[he is SO mean

because it just makes it worse]

Don’t point it out! I’ll hit you!

[unfriendliest]

[ this time he does laugh, quiet enough that lili may miss it if she's not paying attention

she's funny ]

[coastal]

[on the one hand, she absolutely plans on following through with her threat to hit him

on the other, she has not yet mastered the art of being able to stay completely mad when he laughs

her compromise is to grab the nearest pillow and smack him with it]

What's so funny anyway....!

[unfriendliest]

[ he’ll allow her to hit him it’s fine ]

You get embarrassed so easily. I don’t understand why.

[coastal]

[sdfklj he wasn't supposed to actually answer

but she hugs the pillow closer to her then, as if it's a shield]

You don't get embarrassed at all... That's hard for me to understand too!

[unfriendliest]

[ he shrugs, eyeing the way she holds the pillow. what's she expect him to do, exactly? ]

Probably because I'm not human.

[ it's not like he knows what to be embarrassed about ]

[coastal]

[it's a shield now - and easier for her to hide her face if she gets embarrassed again. which might also be sooner than expected]

Right...

Well, it's not that weird to be embarrassed about this kind of thing.

[she does get more flustered than most]

I don't know how Kaoru managed to talk about it all so calmly...

[unfriendliest]

He acts like he’s an expert. Do you get embarrassed by things you know that well?

[ please don’t call kaoru the expert ]

[coastal]

Please don't call him an expert when he's just lewd and shameless.

[unfriendliest]

[ like that matters to kara ]

He was the one who told me what it might feel like to like someone the way you do.

[ that obviously?? makes him an expert?? (no) ]

[coastal]

[ . . . . . well that makes it hard to keep talking shit, doesn't it]

... it's not like I'm ungrateful or anything....

[kaoru is what helped them get here,,,]

[unfriendliest]

I don't see the point in worrying about it, anyway. I'm not ashamed to be with you, and it's no one else's business what we do together.

[ except that she's nobility

but he still doesn't know how exactly that works in this world, if it's much different from his own ]

[coastal]

[that sure is a problem for future lili

because current lili is just going to laugh briefly at that - ]

If you were ashamed to be with me, we'd probably be having a very different conversation....

... anyway most people get embarrassed and Kaoru is an oddity. I'm not ashamed to be with you or anything, it's just...

[ . . . hrrrrmph]

You know emotions are difficult...

[unfriendliest]

Yeah, but I never reacted like that.

[ except when he was cursed but he doesn't actually know he blushed anyway? god i hate swords ]

I'm glad the saniwa let me choose where to go, though.

[ he looks down as he tries to find the words ]

I've... missed seeing you.