[ kara & lili are romance, somehow ]

[coastal]

what if i turn this into a visualosities as i go

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[coastal]

[honestly?]

I hope so. I'm getting tired of being the only one between the two of us to know embarrassment.

[unfriendliest]

Why should either of us b embarrassd?

[coastal]

It's not really a should... It's just something that happens...?

[lili is honestly just a very easily embarrassed person]

Having your heart race, and feeling warm... You've never felt anything like that?

[unfriendliest]

...Maybe a little, when Milla cursed me. I didn't like it.

[coastal]

[she thinks about that for a moment - before sighing]

... well, I feel a little bit of that. I don't know if it's to the same extent that you felt but...

If you don't like it, then I'm glad you don't feel it. Even if I kind of want to see that reaction...

[unfriendliest]

...Why?

[coastal]

It'd feel like a kind of victory?

[unfriendliest]

[ well, now she'll never see it. out of SPITE. ]

It's not that special.

[coastal]

[STOP]

It is special!

[unfriendliest]

Why would it be?

[coastal]

It is...

Don't you want to know all sides of the person you're involved with?

[unfriendliest]

[ he's quiet for a long moment, considering it. ]

You think you don't know all sides me?

[coastal]

... you know we've only known each other for two months, right?

[she looks a little surprised at that - like it'd be impossible to know anyone and all their aspects in that amount of time]

I think I know you well - as well as I could get to know anyone in that time.

But... there's still a lot that we just haven't gone through together, you know? So there's still more to learn.

[unfriendliest]

I've only had this body for two years.

[ he genuinely doesn't believe there's much more to him than she knows already? he is, after all, just a sword with a very confusing, very human heart. ]

You're making it out to be more complicated than it is.

[coastal]

Humans are complicated, you idiot, and you're at least partially human now.

[that's what she's trying to say!!]

[unfriendliest]

[ he's being so stupid ]

It doesn't have to be complicated if you don't make it that way.

[coastal]

It's going to get complicated whether you like it or not - the heart feels whatever it wants, and it's horrible sometimes.

[when you want to support your favorite person in the world but can't deny that the guy who ruined her life is a good king? man! that sucks!]

So it's better to acknowledge that instead of pretending it's not going to happen.

[unfriendliest]

[ human hearts... do they really have to be so complicated? Kara's already experienced some of it, between those two years as a sword warrior and the eight weeks in the village where they'd met, but kara thinks he must still be much simpler at his core than most.

or maybe that's him running from it all, still trying avoid being hurt. he doesn't think that hard on it. ]

...Even if it is complicated. What does that have to do with me being embarrassed or not?

[coastal]

[she shakes her head]

Not much directly... but I don't want you to think that things are going to always be uncomplicated, and we already know everything there is about each other.

[she pauses from cleaning so that she can reach over to set her hand over his - careful to avoid the window of skin so they don't get attached, instead just letting their fingers brush]

But even if everything else changes, we'll stay together. So it'll be fine.

[and it's a little strange to her - to think that she can say that so confidently and without embarrassment but... this is a truth she's not nervous about]

[unfriendliest]

[ he watches their hands brush, frowning. it's... hard, to understand exactly what lili means. he'll never fully understand the human heart, ookurikara thinks, and while the thought of allowing himself to become more attached, even now with the odds probably stacked against him, is terrifying... ]

We said we'd figure it out. So we will.

[coastal]

We will.

[even with everything that the heart feels, and how inconvenient it is. even if lili is embarrassed forever and even if kara never figures it out - ]

So don't forget to rely on me, too. I tell you and Tsurumaru the same thing constantly.

[unfriendliest]

...If you aren't careful, they'll start thinking Tsuru is your suitor, too.

[coastal]

[she

looks like she wants to laugh because she's so fucking rude, and covers her mouth with her hand]

... is that so....

He's almost disgustingly affectionate with his own lover, so I doubt that would even remotely be possible.

[unfriendliest]

[ it's not often his teasing gets this kind of reaction instead. he likes it. ]

You were stuck to him earlier.

[coastal]

[ugh, her expression sours]

Don't look so amused, you did absolutely nothing to help.

[what could he have done, lili]