coastal | [ akira & lili are 2rebellious ]

[sdflkjsdf

she smacks at his hand]

Don't try me! I've already smothered you with a pillow!

You have.

[SOLEMNLY]

I'm surprised I managed to survive.

I can always finish what I started.

[please don't sound so serious]

Are you feeling any better now then?

I am.

[that's honest, at least!!]

Are you?

I've been fine, you idiot.

[AKIRA WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO REALLY GOT HIS HOPES UP ON MONDAY]

[HE WAS, BUT ALSO. . . THAT MEMORY AND THEIR TALK ON MONDAY!!]

I just wanted to make sure.

[haha well,]

... you don't have to.

[she'll seem like she's a bit unsure about saying more but - ]

... Kara's still with us. So I don't have much to complain about outside of the usual anger toward this whole situation.

[maybe her relief is stronger than anything else]

I know I don't have to. But I want to.

[friendship!!!]

[she hates this stupid protag. she gets embarrassed, like an idiot, but it's fine bc she can blame her warm cheeks on the cold]

.... I'm alright. I'm not someone that people ought to worry over. I've been through worse.

[which akira has like. seen by now.]

That's why I worry about you.

[because she's like him in that she pushes through everything bad because she feels like people should focus on others first]

Because you're the type to put other people first.

[ . . . well,]

... I don't know if I'm as selfless as you make me sound....

I've already fallen apart here too. It's just - nothing has really... cut as deep as the first weekend.

[there's no one she misses as much as tsurumaru. she feels the same anger and despair as everyone else when they fail, but it's not enough to knock her off her feet.]

You know I'm not just talking about the pain that comes with losing loved ones, right?

[there are other ways to feel hurt and pain in a place like this, after all]

[ . . . . ]

Well, I'm used to the other kind of pain.

[the frustration. the futility. the constantly being locked out of answers and not being taken seriously.

maybe that's why she's even more stubborn that akira is sometimes, after living through failure for 17 years]

That doesn't make it any better.

[Lili please!1]

[she shakes her head]

It doesn't, but it's what I've lived with, Akira.

[she wears disappointment like a second skin]

And it's not something that can be solved until we win, right? So we just... need to get something right.

[. . .]

[well. . . he doesn't have much to say about that]

[but he does reach out to drop both of his hands on her shoulders, squeezing lightly]

[ . . . . she sighs a little bit, and then brings up her hands to rest on top of his as she looks up at him.]

... if I think I need something or want for anything, I'll tell you. Second, right after Kara.

Deal?

[a light huff, mouth twitching]

Deal.

[she nods at that - and she squeezes his hands briefly before lifting them off of her shoulders]

We'll be alright.

[ . . . but she wants to give credit where it's due though and so she pauses, looking just a bit embarrassed]

And I'm not... It's not common for...

[how does she want to say this]

... Most people don't check on me as often as you do. So even if it's not... all that necessary...

Even being asked is....

[ . . . . . ]

Kind of... nice.

[she is so stupid and awkward]

[SHE IS SO AWKWARD, AND YET--]

[it's endearing, and Akira finds himself flashing her a genuine smile]

It's another part of being friends with me.

[nodnods!!]

[stop smiling at her!!!!]

W-Well, that's... fine!

I guess!

[GOD]

[NO!! J'REFUSE!!1]

You guess?

I guess!!

[STOP DOING THIS TO HER]

[HE WILL NEVER]

You guess.

[HE JUST SOUNDS AMUSED]

[sdflkjsdf]

Stop laughing!! Don't make fun of me!

[she gets so easy to bully]

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