[ kara & lili are romance, somehow ]

[coastal]

what if i turn this into a visualosities as i go

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[unfriendliest]

[ squints

she does not seem fine

and also: ]

Are you blushing? Your ears are turning red.

[coastal]

[SHE COVERS HER EARS WITH HER HANDS AND DOES NOT LIFT HER HEAD]

Stop! Go back to cleaning!

[unfriendliest]

You don't have to hide it.

[ he does start cleaning the stovetop though haha ]

[coastal]

It's embarrassing...

[she doesn't like obviously blushing! but she'll take a deep breath before straightening up again and resuming wiping down all the counters]

[unfriendliest]

You don't have anything to be embarrassed about with me.

[coastal]

It's not like I can help it...

[she sighs and her free hand comes up to her chest, where her heart is still beating fast over such a simple comment]

It's—

... I'd rather feel it than not, at least.

[she'd rather be flustered with him than missing out on the feeling entirely]

[unfriendliest]

[ he's definitely not hiding a smile where she can't see it, she's so funny ]

Maybe someday you'll get used to it.

[coastal]

[honestly?]

I hope so. I'm getting tired of being the only one between the two of us to know embarrassment.

[unfriendliest]

Why should either of us b embarrassd?

[coastal]

It's not really a should... It's just something that happens...?

[lili is honestly just a very easily embarrassed person]

Having your heart race, and feeling warm... You've never felt anything like that?

[unfriendliest]

...Maybe a little, when Milla cursed me. I didn't like it.

[coastal]

[she thinks about that for a moment - before sighing]

... well, I feel a little bit of that. I don't know if it's to the same extent that you felt but...

If you don't like it, then I'm glad you don't feel it. Even if I kind of want to see that reaction...

[unfriendliest]

...Why?

[coastal]

It'd feel like a kind of victory?

[unfriendliest]

[ well, now she'll never see it. out of SPITE. ]

It's not that special.

[coastal]

[STOP]

It is special!

[unfriendliest]

Why would it be?

[coastal]

It is...

Don't you want to know all sides of the person you're involved with?

[unfriendliest]

[ he's quiet for a long moment, considering it. ]

You think you don't know all sides me?

[coastal]

... you know we've only known each other for two months, right?

[she looks a little surprised at that - like it'd be impossible to know anyone and all their aspects in that amount of time]

I think I know you well - as well as I could get to know anyone in that time.

But... there's still a lot that we just haven't gone through together, you know? So there's still more to learn.

[unfriendliest]

I've only had this body for two years.

[ he genuinely doesn't believe there's much more to him than she knows already? he is, after all, just a sword with a very confusing, very human heart. ]

You're making it out to be more complicated than it is.

[coastal]

Humans are complicated, you idiot, and you're at least partially human now.

[that's what she's trying to say!!]

[unfriendliest]

[ he's being so stupid ]

It doesn't have to be complicated if you don't make it that way.

[coastal]

It's going to get complicated whether you like it or not - the heart feels whatever it wants, and it's horrible sometimes.

[when you want to support your favorite person in the world but can't deny that the guy who ruined her life is a good king? man! that sucks!]

So it's better to acknowledge that instead of pretending it's not going to happen.

[unfriendliest]

[ human hearts... do they really have to be so complicated? Kara's already experienced some of it, between those two years as a sword warrior and the eight weeks in the village where they'd met, but kara thinks he must still be much simpler at his core than most.

or maybe that's him running from it all, still trying avoid being hurt. he doesn't think that hard on it. ]

...Even if it is complicated. What does that have to do with me being embarrassed or not?