[ he pauses, wondering how to phrase this. or if he even should. ]
No matter what happens... I am ready to accept the outcome. But the longer I get to hang out with people like you, and get to experiences all of this... It's not that my resolve has become weak. But it makes me a little sad to think about it, and I hadn't considered it sad before.
I wish you wouldn't accept every outcome. I'd like it more if you felt more strongly about living, and wouldn't allow anything else to happen. But I know that's...
[she frowns. maybe it's not possible.]
I didn't care to give you some stupid dramatic goodbye because I was sure I was going to see you again, because nothing bad would happen to you.
[ that's the thing about war-- every time you step onto a battlefield, you must step onto it with the knowledge that it may be your final resting place.
of course he wants to live. he wants to return to his citadel and greet his saniwa, hoping to receive praise for another mission well done. he wants to prepare dinner with the other date swords, even if it's just him eating what they make and getting in their way. he wants to see how far lili has progressed in her training. he wants to feel mikazuki's warmth against his.
but, no matter what his wants are, at the end of the day he is still a weapon, and he accepts his duty as one without complaint. in the distant future, there may be a time where they defeate the retrograde army once and for all, and he might be able to live as normal of a life as someone like him can. but for now, that is a far off dream, and he must face the obstacles of today. ]
In that case... I will hold my fate to your belief, Lili An. If you say I will be fine, then it must be true.
.... of course it is. I'd never lie to you, right?
[it's what she says first, immediately, and there's no doubting the confidence in her voice. she'd never say anything that's untruthful to tsurumaru, so when she says that there's no way that he'd ever fail his mission and there's no way that they'd be stuck saying goodbye forever because he breaks there - she means it.
but also.]
And I'd tear the universe apart with my own hands before I let your fate be an unfortunate one.
[ he has always described lili as 'a good girl' and it's moments like this where he believes it fully. he really is grateful that she became so close to kara-- not even romantically, but in general. she's the kind of good influence that he needed.
and maybe what tsuru needed as well? ]
I think we already gave the universe one beating, I'm not sure it'll be able to handle another.
I heard that other groups received wishes when they went home. If something like that happened here, we could potentially save the ones from the boat with that. Although, it would be preferably if we can figure out multiple options in case some become undoable.
I was thinking that too. And even Shess was able to decide everything at the end, right? What would become of all of our homes and us...
So if we could do that, we could possibly create something that could either dispel their [sex] demons. I don't know if I particularly care for rewriting the past entirely when there are so many unknowns.
[she recognize this is an odd conversation to have with a sword meant to protect history
I feel like we most likely won't be able to? Because in that case, wouldn't any of the places who got wishes have been able to simply rewrite it as well? And if we did that, it would change things for us here potentially.
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[ . . . . ]
Are you happy that you got a bit more time? Or did you just want to go back and finish? Your situation... it's different from others.
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[ he pauses, wondering how to phrase this. or if he even should. ]
No matter what happens... I am ready to accept the outcome. But the longer I get to hang out with people like you, and get to experiences all of this... It's not that my resolve has become weak. But it makes me a little sad to think about it, and I hadn't considered it sad before.
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I wish you wouldn't accept every outcome. I'd like it more if you felt more strongly about living, and wouldn't allow anything else to happen. But I know that's...
[she frowns. maybe it's not possible.]
I didn't care to give you some stupid dramatic goodbye because I was sure I was going to see you again, because nothing bad would happen to you.
I still won't accept anything else.
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of course he wants to live. he wants to return to his citadel and greet his saniwa, hoping to receive praise for another mission well done. he wants to prepare dinner with the other date swords, even if it's just him eating what they make and getting in their way. he wants to see how far lili has progressed in her training. he wants to feel mikazuki's warmth against his.
but, no matter what his wants are, at the end of the day he is still a weapon, and he accepts his duty as one without complaint. in the distant future, there may be a time where they defeate the retrograde army once and for all, and he might be able to live as normal of a life as someone like him can. but for now, that is a far off dream, and he must face the obstacles of today. ]
In that case... I will hold my fate to your belief, Lili An. If you say I will be fine, then it must be true.
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[it's what she says first, immediately, and there's no doubting the confidence in her voice. she'd never say anything that's untruthful to tsurumaru, so when she says that there's no way that he'd ever fail his mission and there's no way that they'd be stuck saying goodbye forever because he breaks there - she means it.
but also.]
And I'd tear the universe apart with my own hands before I let your fate be an unfortunate one.
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and maybe what tsuru needed as well? ]
I think we already gave the universe one beating, I'm not sure it'll be able to handle another.
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[ESPECIALLY THE SEX DEMONS]
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[ in what way ]
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[she's so mad]
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I heard that other groups received wishes when they went home. If something like that happened here, we could potentially save the ones from the boat with that. Although, it would be preferably if we can figure out multiple options in case some become undoable.
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I was thinking that too. And even Shess was able to decide everything at the end, right? What would become of all of our homes and us...
So if we could do that, we could possibly create something that could either dispel their [sex] demons. I don't know if I particularly care for rewriting the past entirely when there are so many unknowns.
[she recognize this is an odd conversation to have with a sword meant to protect history
lili sure as shit ain't jiji]
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I feel like we most likely won't be able to? Because in that case, wouldn't any of the places who got wishes have been able to simply rewrite it as well? And if we did that, it would change things for us here potentially.
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a stall
as she tries to decipher how the fuck time flows]
... that's really confusing!
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So we're looking for an antidote, not an eraser?
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[ he does not know enough about how the mgu works to try to erase timelines ]