[What is it with kids this age and thinking they need to go through life flawlessly!! Hilariously, this actually does remind him of Jin Ling a little bit - of his impossibly high standards for himself, set by warring generations ahead of him and a too-strict uncle who never moved out of grief.
After a beat, somewhat curiously:]
What do you think, then? About what happened there - how you did, how you handled it. Beyond not making the mistake of misplacing your trust, what do you think you would have done differently, if you could?
[He ain't even worried about the gallows themselves because Lili feels like the kind of person who just will not die.]
[ . . . . what would she have done differently? she thinks back on it. the answer is - not much. not really. because she did what she had to do in order to save ayura, followed by her realization that she didn't want to die. she wouldn't accept dying that way.]
.... I think it was rather disgraceful, but it was necessary for what I wanted to accomplish at the time.
[to save the people important to her, and then to desperately cling to life on her own.]
I don't know if there is anything. Maybe tried harder, or been less weak.
[They are pretty nebulous things, and he arches a brow, wondering if she sees the same things in her words that he's seeing but knowing she likely isn't.]
If what you did was necessary then, and you did what you set out to do, is that not enough?
[Though on the end of that question, another memory is spat out between them. We love being tried for crimes!!]
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After a beat, somewhat curiously:]
What do you think, then? About what happened there - how you did, how you handled it. Beyond not making the mistake of misplacing your trust, what do you think you would have done differently, if you could?
[He ain't even worried about the gallows themselves because Lili feels like the kind of person who just will not die.]
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.... I think it was rather disgraceful, but it was necessary for what I wanted to accomplish at the time.
[to save the people important to her, and then to desperately cling to life on her own.]
I don't know if there is anything. Maybe tried harder, or been less weak.
[but those are nebulous things.]
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If what you did was necessary then, and you did what you set out to do, is that not enough?
[Though on the end of that question, another memory is spat out between them. We love being tried for crimes!!]