[ . . . . she nods then, because it's all she can do. she can get her revenge, she can do what she needs to do in order to save her friend, and she can try to save as many people as she can.
it does nothing for the tight knot of guilt in her chest, the feeling of loss, and the fact that all she wants to do is hear tsurumaru yell 'surprise!' from behind some building - because even if this is a prank that she would want to strangle him over, it would mean that he's alive.
but here they are.
she turns away.]
... there's smudged footprints leading out of the Mess Hall, and Yin Yu found blood in by the shower.
Other than that, I have nothing else for you, Flayn.
[and so she doesn't think flayn has any more reason to stay with her either]
[Flayn watches Lili's back. They've only known each other a week, and Lili is very strong. It doesn't seem as though she is the type to easily let people in, either - she stands on her own two feet, and does what she thinks is best no matter how hard it may be.
Even if she believes she has to do that with no one's support but her own.]
I have no information I can offer for you - I found nothing... but if there is anything I can do for you, anything at all... [Her voice softens.] I cannot claim to understand exactly what you are feeling, but I know that it must hurt very, very much. I hope you know that you do not have to face this alone.
I am here to let you lean on me, if you will allow it.
[ . . . it's odd. it confuses her. to be told that she doesn't have to carry something by herself and in a way, she knows that. there's no need for her to suffer through this alone when she can return to ookurikara's side whenever she wants and she knows she'll be accepted.
but flayn is - different. flayn is something that lili has a tenuous alliance with, and something that lili likes as a person more than that. she is kind, and patient, and willing to help.
even so.]
... why? You don't - you know nothing about me...
[but her voice is soft. it trembles in both confusion and sadness - but not distrust.]
[It's not that she knows nothing about Lili. It's true that she does not know much about her past, save the few details she has divulged - but Flayn knows what she has seen with her own two eyes in the last week.]
I know that you care deeply for those you consider your friends. I know that injustice is something that you cannot abide. I know that you are willing to put yourself in harm's way, even as you usher others away from it, and I know that if you became a danger to any of us here, you would wish for us to stop you.
[She'd demonstrated that pretty obviously the night before, with what she'd said to the others when they got locked out...]
I know that you strive to do the right thing, even at great inconvenience to yourself. Maybe especially then.
[You don't get banished from your homeland for nothing.]
I know that you are kind enough to encourage Ookurikara to do a favor for someone you have also only just met. I know that it is not only that you possess great strength of will - you possess great strength of character.
[Her voice gentles.]
...and I know that the strongest people are always harshest with themselves. That they do not often allow themselves the sort of support they so readily provide to everyone else around them.
[And that's just... sad, really.]
I have only known you a short time, Lili, but everything I know about you makes me wish to know you better.
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it does nothing for the tight knot of guilt in her chest, the feeling of loss, and the fact that all she wants to do is hear tsurumaru yell 'surprise!' from behind some building - because even if this is a prank that she would want to strangle him over, it would mean that he's alive.
but here they are.
she turns away.]
... there's smudged footprints leading out of the Mess Hall, and Yin Yu found blood in by the shower.
Other than that, I have nothing else for you, Flayn.
[and so she doesn't think flayn has any more reason to stay with her either]
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[Flayn watches Lili's back. They've only known each other a week, and Lili is very strong. It doesn't seem as though she is the type to easily let people in, either - she stands on her own two feet, and does what she thinks is best no matter how hard it may be.
Even if she believes she has to do that with no one's support but her own.]
I have no information I can offer for you - I found nothing... but if there is anything I can do for you, anything at all... [Her voice softens.] I cannot claim to understand exactly what you are feeling, but I know that it must hurt very, very much. I hope you know that you do not have to face this alone.
I am here to let you lean on me, if you will allow it.
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but flayn is - different. flayn is something that lili has a tenuous alliance with, and something that lili likes as a person more than that. she is kind, and patient, and willing to help.
even so.]
... why? You don't - you know nothing about me...
[but her voice is soft. it trembles in both confusion and sadness - but not distrust.]
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[It's not that she knows nothing about Lili. It's true that she does not know much about her past, save the few details she has divulged - but Flayn knows what she has seen with her own two eyes in the last week.]
I know that you care deeply for those you consider your friends. I know that injustice is something that you cannot abide. I know that you are willing to put yourself in harm's way, even as you usher others away from it, and I know that if you became a danger to any of us here, you would wish for us to stop you.
[She'd demonstrated that pretty obviously the night before, with what she'd said to the others when they got locked out...]
I know that you strive to do the right thing, even at great inconvenience to yourself. Maybe especially then.
[You don't get banished from your homeland for nothing.]
I know that you are kind enough to encourage Ookurikara to do a favor for someone you have also only just met. I know that it is not only that you possess great strength of will - you possess great strength of character.
[Her voice gentles.]
...and I know that the strongest people are always harshest with themselves. That they do not often allow themselves the sort of support they so readily provide to everyone else around them.
[And that's just... sad, really.]
I have only known you a short time, Lili, but everything I know about you makes me wish to know you better.