[ . . . . that is definitely what happens when you're in a murdercamp. but at least in response to flayn's feelings, there's still sparks of anger in lili's - not directed at flayn, just at the fact that something made her feel this way - and concern.
but she'll move to help her sit somewhere, and then reach out to help her.]
Alright, do so and I'll assist.
[but we can handwave that bc none of us are jae and neither of us know a medicine]
[HANDWAVING MEDICAL STUFF. honestly that is fair and valid.]
This is the second time I have had to be rescued during something like this. [her expression falls, and she looks down, away from lili's face.] All I want is to be of help to everyone, but...
[there is some pretty deep frustration and a hint of self-loathing as she speaks.]
[ . . . . . ah. there's an echo of understanding on lili's side.]
.... it's annoying, right? To... keep doing everything that you can to help, but for some reason at the end, someone else still needs to come and help you.
[ . . . ]
Everything that I tried to do back home... I was always saved by someone else, at the end. People can tell me I was brave for what I endured and yet -
It doesn't change the fact that by the end, I couldn't finish it myself.
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but she'll move to help her sit somewhere, and then reach out to help her.]
Alright, do so and I'll assist.
[but we can handwave that bc none of us are jae and neither of us know a medicine]
.... why do you feel so guilty? What happened?
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[HANDWAVING MEDICAL STUFF. honestly that is fair and valid.]
This is the second time I have had to be rescued during something like this. [her expression falls, and she looks down, away from lili's face.] All I want is to be of help to everyone, but...
[there is some pretty deep frustration and a hint of self-loathing as she speaks.]
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.... it's annoying, right? To... keep doing everything that you can to help, but for some reason at the end, someone else still needs to come and help you.
[ . . . ]
Everything that I tried to do back home... I was always saved by someone else, at the end. People can tell me I was brave for what I endured and yet -
It doesn't change the fact that by the end, I couldn't finish it myself.
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it isn't just annoying - it's maddening. when all you want to do is to be able to help others, and in the end someone else has to help you, it...
feeling powerless isn't a good feeling at all.]
...we will finish this ourselves. ["this" being... the game.] This time, we will help them.
I have to believe that, but...
[it's very easy, at times like this, to doubt.]